A Little Hope

I’m so fucking tired of every facing thing.
I just want to go to bed and live in a dream.
Hide from the world and live my life dreaming.
To be in a world made of what I deem.
Away from the world of greed and scheming.

It seems everyone wants to be a millionaire.
They lie, and scheme, and cheat to get there.
All worshiping miserable billionaires
Who lie so much you can see it in the air.
All while the people don’t get anywhere.

Life has become so hard that I can’t see the end
I’ve become so tired I just want to give in.
Afraid I will break instead of bend.
Wandering why my life had to begin
Hoping for something would bring it to an end

Struggling just to get by
While the universe turns a blind eye
Sitting wanting to die.
Trying to try
While time just goes by

Deep down I don’t want to die
But I can only sit and cry
While I can only ask myself “why?”
It is so hard to try.
It seems easier to just die.

I’m trying to cope.
I just want some hope.
I don’t want to sit around and mope.
But my will just says “nope”.
I just need a little hope.

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I don’t feel this way right now (though being tired of everything is too common) but I have been there so I understand the feeling. If you feel this way don’t hesitate to ask for help.

US: https://988lifeline.org/talk-to-someone-now/
Canada: https://talksuicide.ca/
Britten: https://www.spuk.org.uk/national-suicide-prevention-helpline-uk/
Australia: https://www.lifeline.org.au/
New Zealand: https://mherc.org.nz/directory/all-listings-alphabetical/suicide-crisis-helpline
International: https://www.iasp.info/suicidalthoughts/